Don't Judge Me...Please

I am sitting here at my desk im-ing with Keelah and my husband...and counting down the minutes until 1pm. That's the time I get off. We are ordering PF Changs for lunch today. I am also contemplating touching base with Mr. Sexy. I only want to have a conversation(lol)...but I feel the need today to talk to him. I don't know why...it is what it is though. Why is it when we have something good we always want to try something different? Don't get me wrong...I love my husband and I have forgiven him for the "proverbial" sin...but I still haven't forgotten. I have to shake the urge to get even. I am praying for strength..and God has answered those prayers...because I have continued to say no. Don't rush to judge me...just pray for me.